Monday 11 March 2013

What would you be if money were no object?

http://youtu.be/siu6JYqOZ0g

Looking at things from a different angle. Watch this and let it open your mind...

Alan watts' lectures are so inspirational to me and helps me look at things that would normally get me down, differently. I hope it does the same to you, search hint on YouTube and have a listen!

Sunday 6 January 2013

Task 3a: current networks

Almost everybody networks every single day in one way or another. from a simple chat with a friend, to news broadcasts, to Twitter posts. We are a networking generation. I know in my chosen profession that professional networking is vital and can have a major impact towards having a successful career or not. Previous teachers at college have made it clear to me that networking is important for us as performers to get known.

Here are a few of my existing networks that I use

Social Network sites
I believe that tools like Facebook and Twitter are the best way to network currently. Facebook currently has nearly a billion active users and with 7 billion people living on this planet, i think its safe to say that with so many active users online it is more than possible to access and share information about myself to the people i wouldn't necessarily gain contact with. I teach Zumba fitness as an extra job on the side and to advertise with flyers, posters and business cards would cost me an arm and a leg to have continual advertisement for my classes, not to mention the distributing of flyers etc. So i set up my own Zumba Facebook page which is open to users to find if they search for 'Zumba'. There you can find all information about the classes and a contact number and email address to me. I have gained so many clients and still continue to, thanks to the accessibility of Facebook.

Friends
The majority of my friends are all in the same circle as me. We're all performers, either dancers, actors or singers and most of us a combination of all three, which is really good for all of us to stay in the know. Although this industry is a competitive one and competition can turn the best of us ugly, i'm lucky to have an amazing close group of friends. We all fill each other in on auditions we have heard about and talk about new information the might come about in the industry. Its important to stay updated with one another because all of us have different experiences and sometimes each of our experiences could help one another. for example one of my friends was in a panto last year that i was auditioning for this year, so she filled me in with the audition process and gave me advice on how i should perform in there.

Class & Auditioning
Going to dance classes are a great way to network. I always seem to get chatting to other girls there who i may or may not know already and we talk about our previous training, previous work or future work and auditions coming up. Places like the Pineapple have notice boards up to promote all different kinds of things that could benefit us performers, like photographers, auditions and other classes. Also building up a good relationship with teachers in class could lead to bigger things. Usually they have either worked in the business themselvs or know someone who could get you work. Auditions are also a great place to get chatting to other girls in the same circles. I have once been chatting to a group of girls at one audition and they told me they were going to another bigger audition after that i had no idea was going on, so ended up at that audition too.

Agent
i am lucky to have a good relationship with my agent and i feel i can talk to her openly with my veiws about what direction i want my career to go in. I think this is important for her to understand my personal goals on my level so she can work for me in the way i want to go. I always fill her in with what i have been doing, theatre i have seen and my views on it, who i like on tv etc. She is a great agent and has given me great advice to boost my career.


They say in this industry that its not what you know, its who you know. I agree with that statement entirely as i have been in many situations in the past where i have witnessed somebody actually bag a job just by being in the room and having worked with that choreographer before. This isn't fair at all, seeing as everybody else in the room, including myself, had to spend the next 2 hours trying our hardest to be seen, pick up choreography and using every bit of energy we have to try and bag that same job. The industry is fickle, unfair and biased and sometimes feels completely impossible, but this only drives the hunger in our belly's even more. It is important that we network and stay in the know, so that we build a name for ourself and others can begin to recognise us. it is also even more important that the name we create for ourselves is a good one and we let others know that we are reliable professionals.

Thursday 3 January 2013

Task 2d: Inquiry

What in your daily practice gets you really enthusiastic to find out more about? Who do you admire who also works with what makes you enthusiastic? 

The thing that gets me most enthusiastic is actually doing what I love to do! If I learn a dance routine and I get it by the end of class, well that's cool But i want a routine to keep inside my head, I want to show it off! I want to stand up and give out, I want everyone to see it!! That's why when getting a job is such an amazing feeling because you know you can show off what you've got! Getting my next job is what makes me enthusiastic, knowing that I can do something and there could be an opportunity for me is What gives me the biggest buzz. Even when I get sent a script over for an audition then I am head down in the page getting to grips with the character, becoming that character to ensure that job is mine. it's THE best feeling knowing that all the hard work and struggle has finally paid off. It's also really overwhelming sometimes thinking about how many people they must have seen before choosing you and that also makes you feel a little bit special! One woman that I truly admire and adore was one of my dance teachers at Italia Conti, Pat D. She specialised in contemporary jazz, which was like no other type of dance I had ever seen before. She had created her own acquired style over the years I began to fall in love with it. She only used a few selected dancers in her numbers and luckily she picked me when I first got the chance. We started working closely together, even on weekends and over time she used me as a prodigy to her movements and together we grew as one. That lady taught me so much about dance, myself and the industry I was about to go into and all of it will never be forgotten. An inspiration. 

  Pats work, my solo- The new Wimbledon theatre. 
What gets you angry or makes you sad? Who do you admire who shares your feelings or has found a way to work around the sadness or anger? 

As all performers might agree, the most frustrating thing for all of us Is the rejection. We all go into auditions after having trained at the most amazing performing arts schools, feeling like we're the new 'thing' with soooooooooo much hope in our hearts and quickly that hope is shattered. I was one of these hopefulls and I too learnt very quickly to not be too hopefull about any audition. I have been out of college for over a year now which doesn't sound like very long but the amount I have learnt in that time is epic. For anyone, It is really hard to handle rejection of any kind but it's something I have found most difficult. There are still times now where I think 'yes this is it! Down to the last round, that means I'll get this!!' and then Im out the door quicker that you can say boo! And I can't lie it frustrates me and I do get upset, especially when I ask 'why her? Why not me?'. But that's the thing isn't it, we are all so brilliant! And there are so many of us! And there are so little jobs!!! But
 that's the way this industry is and I feel that's what makes you want it more. It drives the hunger in your belly and if you can hold it out then you can last the fight. I admire all performers out there, and all of my closest loveliest friends that go through exactly the same rejection all the time. We are all in this together and if it wasn't for my friends to pick me back up then I'd still be down there, so thanks guys!!!

What do you love about what you do? Who do you admire who also seems to love this or is an example of what you love? 

The thing I love most about being a performer is the fact we can do what we love to do everyday. We're not stuck behind a computer, bored to death! We can feel good, be fit, makeother people feel good, network with various different people, travel to some amazing places, feel the buzz of adrenalin run through your body, we can be creative, add strings to our bows in various different areas and have the freedom to be seen as whoever we want to be. It's the freedom and creativity that I love. Theres a lot more to performing than just being a dancer, actress or singer and  i sometimes feel other areas of the performing world are forgotten. With the massive amount of competition out there to be the next dancer, actress or singer, it's nice to know there are other routes we could take. Directing, producing, stage crew, voice overs, tv extras, playwriting, stunt work and managing a theatre school are some to say the least. My boyfriend is someone who I admire for their drive towards this industry. He trained as a straight actor for four years at a well known drama school and since leaving has done some good, credible work, but is nowhere near where he thought he'd be at his age. So due to the lack of work/ auditions, he decided to add more strings to his bow and is now the producer of Lonesome Schoolboy Productions, the theatre company he set up a few years ago. He puts on new writing nights in theatres in london, using unknown directors, writers and actors giving the, opportunities they wouldn't nescesserily have. This is great because they can invite along agents and casting directors to help further their careers. He also writes and directs and has given me a great opportunity in one of his nights and this is in fact where my agent spotted me. 

Lonesome Schoolboy Productions are always looking for new talent in writing, directing and acting and could offer you some great opportunities so get following on twitter and Facebook for more info on their next new writing nights. 
Twitter: @lonesomeschoolb
Facebook: lonesome schoolboy
Web: www.lonesomeschoolboy.co.uk

What do you feel you don't understand? Who do you admire who does seem to understand it or who has found a way of making not understanding it interesting or beautiful, or has asked the same questions as you? 

Sometimes I feel like I don't understand how decisions are made within the industry. I wrote in a previous question about rejection and handling it and that is frustrating for us, but what is sometimes hard to understand or harder to believe is how they can make a decision between who casting directors cast for something and who they don't. It could be down to anything - hair colour, too short, too tall, blue eyes, too big, too skinny. Quite recently I went for a panto audition. 700 girls were seen that day, all amazing, all pretty much in ratio to me looks wise. I got down to the last 40 girls after round after round of the same routine and freestyle, giving it 150% every time! I was at the audition for almost 5 hours and when all the boys were paired up with the girls who were left and there were no boys left, the rest of us were told to leave and thank you very much for your time. WHAT?!?!! Why didnt they do that in the first place?! It really is hard to believe how they can determine who gets it and who doesn't, but that's the way it is! My mum is the one who understands when I fall down and get frustrated. I'm lucky to have parents to support me the way mine do. She tells me my time will come, which I'm pretty sure it will and helps me to understand that it is a fickle business and I should be aware and stronger. She gives me great hope. 

Task 2b: Reflective Writing

Journal writing experience.

In this task we had to try out different ways of writing our journals. I got inspiration from the list of ways to write given in the handbook and I found this exciting and interesting. I chose 7 of the different ways to write and used them in my journal for a week. Here's how I got on...

Description
I think this would be the normal way I would write a diary anyway. I wrote about my day in chronological order expressing my inner thoughts and feelings With detail, much like how I would talk to someone personally. I like writing in this format because it makes me feel at ease when I write my feelings and see how I actually feel and sometimes I surprise myself with the outcome of why I may have felt this way initially.

List
This was a quick and efficient way to keep a personal log of my day. It didn't take me long at all and listed what happened and briefly how I may have felt. This way of writing is good for when time is minimal and I need to keep a quick log of happenings throughout the day. I could use this way of writing to record my day and then come back to it in the evening and extend it into a descriptive format. One thing I don't like about this style of writing was the lack of emotion I added to it. This didn't help me reflect very well later, but was just a log of my day.

Initial reflection
The initial reflection day was easy in some way because I was meeting someone on the day for the first time and so could make an initial reflection but then the rest of my day was pretty basic and boring so there wasn't much for me to go on. What I did take into account whilst looking back on this day was how I may have come across on first impressions. This is important and can relate to my professional practise too, like in an audition situation.

Evaluation
I thought this way of writing was great. Not only did I use the descriptive technique, which comes naturally to me, I also used evaluation techniques to come to a conclusion or to weigh up the day in pros and cons. I also found out why I think my actions are correct and why I think my co-workers might react the way they do and why I don't think their way of handling things is necessarily always correct. This is a great way for me to openly reflect and weigh up situations. I learned that I'm not always as confident in certain situations as I sometimes think I am.

Chart
Like the list, this was brief and efficient, but I thought it allowed me to be openly emotive. I created a chart made up of my morning, afternoon and evening of one day and wrote down 9 feelings I may have on a regular day. Throughout the day I scored each feeling with a number of stars from 1-5 (poor-good) and this helped me to really see not only how I felt but how much of it I felt. I could look back and reflect on what I felt most by weighing up the different emotions. Could definitely use this technique again if I have a lack of time.

What if?
This technique was different but I liked it. I could log my day yet put an imaginary, creative twist on it. I found this really allowed me to let out my true desires and also my worst fears. Truely allowed me to open up to myself which is sometimes harder than youd think. Great to look back reflect from.

Another view
This was the only way of writing I didn't necessarily agree with. I understand how it could be good to look back on your own day through someone or something else's perspective but honestly I found it too tricky and could get inside the mind of someone else! Maybe I'm just not very good at this one but I didn't take to it very well and felt like I was just guessing, seeing as I don't really know the person very well who I decided to write from.

Trying out all of these ways of wroting is really helpful and useful to see how i could reflect upon myself and I think for the rest of the course I will continue to use the description and evaluation techniques combined together so that I can fully emote and describe by day then come to a conclusion at the end to measure up those feelings, to move on to better,


Task 2a: Reflective Practise

In this first section of part 2 we are told to keep a journal, a private journal to help us to reflect on our professional practice. I keep a dairy in my bag which i rely on from day to day about what im meant to be doing for that week etc, but i dont really write and reflect about my day. I used to do that all the time when I was younger but it seems as though I don't really have the time to do that anymore. it Sounds like a simple thing to do, but point blank my life is non stop?! But, this has to be done and i was excited to start my new journal. I thought of how i could write my journal and tried out different ways of writting but as the days went by i resulted in writting in a basic journal format. I was up to date and good for the first week or so but then as usual with me, things get hectic and i realised i hadnt wrote in it for days! Being busy with my play i had completely put everything on hold just because i was working two jobs, morning and night, and to be honest, the thought of sitting down and reflecting on my day seemed like a luxury! After a while, the run of the play was up and i caught up and got everything back on track. But when a few days/weeks went by I started to wonder why I had nothing to write about. I felt my day to day posts were boring and had nothing to do with my career at all! And I came to realise that I don't actually do that much from day to day to do with performing. I work all day at the school and either teach Zumba all night or am at home. It sounds bad but I would love to say I learnt this at class and I had this many auditions this week, but I really dont! For me to go to class every week would cost me so much money for me to get what I really need out of it, and we all know what the audition front is like at the mo..... Sloooooow. But after catching up on other peoples blogs I understand a few others went through the same problems, like Chelsie. I felt the same way and after checking up on her comments from clare Orlandi and Rosemary, I realised I do a lot more than what I thought I did. I go to the theatre an awful lot, me and my boyfriend (an actor too) try to see as much theatre as we can, and we dont do too bad. I watch all different types of film and cinema from all over the world, old and new as I have a massive interest in cinema. I also check daily for auditions on the stage app on my phone and from casting sites I am joined with. Looking back on how I see myself now to how I did whilst I was at college is entirely different, I understand how the industry works now and what it takes. I feel the hunger to dance, whereas at college it was handed to me on a plate. There's lots I took into account and added into my journal writing thanks to other bloggers! 

Reader 2 - The reflective practitioner.

In this reader we see that reflection is the tool to turn our experiences into knowledge.
One tool we can use for reflection is Kolbs 'learning cycle' - approaching the experience.





As you can see there is no specific entry point to the learning cycle, this suggests that we are all different in our learning processes. Our entry points could also vary depending on the experience we're having at that time.
I think Kolbs cycle is easy and clear to understand how initially we begin to learn and using the cycle I found it interesting to see how I enter the cycle and using it I can realise i have had an experience and therefore reflect and learn from my experience. 

My Learning Style usually enters at the Reflective Observation point and then the Concrete
 Experience. For example: during college, If I had to pick up a routine, the quickest way for me to learn it would be to watch someone do it first. When a routine was broken up and demonstrated slowly, i wouldn't necessarily always pick it up straight away and I think this might be because i'm very musical so to see movements to a beat at normal tempo, it registers better for me than if the moves were broken down and without a beat. Although 
this might seem as though i'm lucky to be able to pick things up that quickly without slow demonstration, it didn't/doesn't always go in my favour at auditions. Choreographers always break routines down and teach with numbers and not beats and i find this really hard, therefore not being very good at picking up routines quickly, which could jeopardise my change of getting the job. Then the concrete experience is doing the choreography myself 
and to feel the moves physically using muscle memory. Learning is watching and applying for me.

I'm not really a net 'savvy' person so when it comes to getting to grips with anything online i just kind of get on with it!? So setting up my blog I just followed some simple instructions then it was a case of trial and error with everything else until it looked fairly similar to the 
other blogs and I knew how to work it. Here I entered Kolbs learning cycle at the Active Experimentation point. I think I'm pretty good with picking things up after trying it out as a trial and error attempt.

Looking at Howard Gardiner's list of intelligences(gardner, 1983), I would say I am intelligent musically, bodily-kinaesthetic and intrapersonally. I can pick up a beat, play music by ear from what I have heard and can create music without being at any major high st andard of any musical instrument. But I think this is something that comes naturally within us, just like dancing. I have always had a great sense of rhythm and movement. Also intrpersonally, I do believe I can connect well with other people and their emotions as well as my own. I am a great judge of character and feel I naturally want to help others around me who need it. 

Questions from the reader:

1) how do you reflect on events?
Depending on what I am doing or where I am at the time, reflection can vary for me. Like 
Donald Schon's idea (Schon, 1987) he introduced, reflection-in-action or reflection-on-action, I feel I use both of these concepts on a daily basis. For instance if I were in a dance class and picking up a routine, then I would be continually reflecting throughout using reflection-IN-action. I'm watching, learning, trying out steps, seeing how it looks on me all within the present tense. But then I could go home and sit and write about my day or talk to someone about it and then I would be using reflection-ON-action. Looking back on how I may have handled a situation or performed in that certain class. Here I'd be looking back on the past tense. I find Reflection-IN-action is a brief, efficient way to reflect in the moment, like a check list, whilst reflection-ON-action is something Where i can emote and think twice about something, more like a monologue. Using different tenses of time can vary how we reflect. 

From day to day using social media is another personal way i reflect. My twitter account is not only a way for me to stay connected with friends and personal interests but it is also basically my diary for other people to see what I'm doing or where I'm going later and also how I may feel about certain topics. updating a status allows me to open up freely to my followers, which is great because it allows me to actually tell myself how I feel too, although I would never tweet about something too personal or my deepest feelings towards something, just out of personal privacy. Another way in which I reflect is simply talking about how I feel either to my boyfriend or close friend. This allows me to hear aloud what is actually going on in my head and sometimes this helps because I may not always understand what I feel inside until I sound it out. 

2) have you ever said 'I learnt from that experience!'?
Yes I have, plenty of times! I believe that The best way for a dancer or actress to perform at thier best, is to be on stage and actually learn from the moment. Rehearsing at Italia Conti for my first ever end of year show at The Wimbledon Theatre had me prepared I thought, 
even though I hadnt ever been in a show like this, but when opening night came and I got on the stage infront of the hundreds of people in the audience, nothing could have prepared me for that!! The feeling I got was incredible and I had no idea where my inner performance came from! The best way to learn as a performer is to PERFORM! 

3) have you ever known something before you realised what it means to you?
This question is something I have always thought about in daydreams or quiet moments to myself. I sometimes ask myself 'I wonder when I first learnt the word ...' and then I think 'did someone ever tell me that word or did I just gather what it was from when I heard it in conversation?' because Im pretty sure someone didn't define every single word i know in my vocabulary!? So I'm sure I do know things before I actually know what it means. For example- ballet is taught using french vocabulary and I don't speak any French, so learning the moves and the names of them was pretty much standard, but then actually  understanding what the move meant was something I learnt after and actually resulted in me changing the way I demonstrated the move. E.g- pliĆ© - to bend the knees whilst standing in a stance. But it actually means 'to melt'. So then the way I bent my knees was now softer.